One thing is for certain. God made my children perfect. The are whole and complete and beautiful little ones. Thankful I have friends in my life that can remind me of that while I wait to hear the outcome of our appointment for Ava on Dec. 17th.
Oh - and my house is a mess tonight and I don't care….going to enjoy a glass of wine and go to bed.
The end!
My Family
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Thursday, November 7, 2013
God is Good. I am Blessed.
Obviously my last point of "Am I back" was a no go. I find myself barely having time on my hands to take a shower with 2 littles ones let alone have time to sit down and put my thoughts of the day out there for the world to read.
This is what I have to say for the past 11 months. It has been good. God is good. I feel blessed.....and then it brings me to today. Anxiousness, stress, loss of patience, feeling of sadness. It may not seem like that big of a deal to many, but my little Ava will be 16 months on Nov. 13th and she is still not crawling on her knees and hands and won't bear weight on her feet. She did break her leg at 1 year old and had an adorable pink cast for 3 weeks. So with that being said yes maybe she is just behind from that. However, my brain won't stop spinning. I guess it is just a Mom-thing to worry. Worry that if there is something a matter with her little legs she will be different than the rest and limited to things. The picture I have for her life and our lives won't be the same. So why you ask am I jumping to conclusions when so far all doctors have thought she is fine. Because I am a mom dang it! I want the absolute best for my baby. My eyes well with tears thinking of a chance of her not being able to walk.
We take things for granted in life. I realize I took for granted the use of an index finger and how one little finger on your hand that you use to point at things and scratch your head and get that one last bit of peanut butter out of the jar seem like nothing until you are unable to move it and then the surgery and then it is never the same. I have a gimpy finger now for life and the pain I still feel in my joints at times is a constant reminder of how I almost lost my finger. Thank God for his love and care and how he watches over and protects us. Amazing how until my little Ava is walking I have taken for granted how healthy I am and Luke and Aubrie and I realize how I take for granted the normal every day little things like getting out of bed in the morning and walking around on 2 perfectly good legs God gave me.
So why you ask don't I take some of my own advice towards my daughter. She will be ok, God is watching over her and protecting her and wants the best for her. The Devil. Damn him! He sneaks in and is happy that I dwell on the what-if's and the doubts creep in more and more and next thing you know I can barely hold myself together with the fear I hold inside.
I am a mom. I love Jesus and I need Him. So friends (if there are any that would possibly even read this anymore). I need your help. I need your prayers. This next week until we have an appointment with our MD. Pray that I find peace and Trust in the Almighty. That God will direct my thoughts and my focus will turn on HIM and the Goodness and Blessing he wants to give to Ava and me and our family.
God is good. I am blessed. Learning to Trust in Him. The end.
This is what I have to say for the past 11 months. It has been good. God is good. I feel blessed.....and then it brings me to today. Anxiousness, stress, loss of patience, feeling of sadness. It may not seem like that big of a deal to many, but my little Ava will be 16 months on Nov. 13th and she is still not crawling on her knees and hands and won't bear weight on her feet. She did break her leg at 1 year old and had an adorable pink cast for 3 weeks. So with that being said yes maybe she is just behind from that. However, my brain won't stop spinning. I guess it is just a Mom-thing to worry. Worry that if there is something a matter with her little legs she will be different than the rest and limited to things. The picture I have for her life and our lives won't be the same. So why you ask am I jumping to conclusions when so far all doctors have thought she is fine. Because I am a mom dang it! I want the absolute best for my baby. My eyes well with tears thinking of a chance of her not being able to walk.
We take things for granted in life. I realize I took for granted the use of an index finger and how one little finger on your hand that you use to point at things and scratch your head and get that one last bit of peanut butter out of the jar seem like nothing until you are unable to move it and then the surgery and then it is never the same. I have a gimpy finger now for life and the pain I still feel in my joints at times is a constant reminder of how I almost lost my finger. Thank God for his love and care and how he watches over and protects us. Amazing how until my little Ava is walking I have taken for granted how healthy I am and Luke and Aubrie and I realize how I take for granted the normal every day little things like getting out of bed in the morning and walking around on 2 perfectly good legs God gave me.
So why you ask don't I take some of my own advice towards my daughter. She will be ok, God is watching over her and protecting her and wants the best for her. The Devil. Damn him! He sneaks in and is happy that I dwell on the what-if's and the doubts creep in more and more and next thing you know I can barely hold myself together with the fear I hold inside.
I am a mom. I love Jesus and I need Him. So friends (if there are any that would possibly even read this anymore). I need your help. I need your prayers. This next week until we have an appointment with our MD. Pray that I find peace and Trust in the Almighty. That God will direct my thoughts and my focus will turn on HIM and the Goodness and Blessing he wants to give to Ava and me and our family.
God is good. I am blessed. Learning to Trust in Him. The end.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Am I back at it?
So it has been a very long time since I have blogged...That is an understatement. Ava will be 5 months old in a week and I am trying to figure out how to be a mom, work full time and take care of my house.
I am not going to try and recap the last 5 months because that doesn't seem possible and would take forever...so I will just start with what we have been up to recently.
July 13th - Hooray! Ava was born...1 week early thank goodness. Need a tip on how to go into labor....ride a bike!
August - Stayed in Two Harbors with Lukes family for a couples days. Had a great time!
Went to the State Fair with Sari and Ryan, our first night out away from both girls.
Took a trip to Cantebury Park to watch the horse races, Aubrie loved it.
September - I had emergency surgery with on my left index finger due to a staff infection. It was pretty scary and I am thankful we went to the doctor when we did.
October - Aubrie turned 2 and Luke 31! We had a nice party.
Aubrie got her first hair cut.
I started back to work.
We had family pictures taken.
So that is about it to catch you all up!
I am not going to try and recap the last 5 months because that doesn't seem possible and would take forever...so I will just start with what we have been up to recently.
July 13th - Hooray! Ava was born...1 week early thank goodness. Need a tip on how to go into labor....ride a bike!
August - Stayed in Two Harbors with Lukes family for a couples days. Had a great time!
Went to the State Fair with Sari and Ryan, our first night out away from both girls.
Took a trip to Cantebury Park to watch the horse races, Aubrie loved it.
Aubrie got her first hair cut.
I started back to work.
We had family pictures taken.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
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Thursday, June 28, 2012
Saturday, June 9, 2012
My amazing photographer.......
My sister amazes me!
She took these beautiful pictures of me and I couldn't be more proud of her natural talent as a Photographer. She dabbled in photography in High School, but seriously....she is amazing...I want her to start a new career :)
You feel so dumb smiling at your sister for pictures, but it was really fun and especially seeing the end result. I took these pics at 34 weeks, the exact same time I took pictures when I was pregnant with Aubrie. It is fun to see the difference. I definitely was a lot huger w/ Aubrie, so that makes me feel better :) But the pictures were actually taken at the same farm too, so that is fun.
Good job SISTA AKA AUNNIE! I LOVE YOU!
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Saturday June 2nd, 2012
Saturday is a day I don't want to forget. Aubrie woke up at about 7:30AM, and Luke headed to the golf course. Aubrie and I spent our morning out on the deck. I enjoyed my coffee and she played in the morning sun. We got dressed and headed to the park. We went down the slide a mission times, she swang and we sat together and drank our water. I wish the morning could have been taped so I can remember every detail. :)
Luke came home around 12pm, we ate lunch and then Aubrie was off for her nap. Luke and I set up ladder ball and played that, relaxed in the sunshine on the deck while we got our ribs on the grill and ready for dinner. Those things just aren't for kids you know!
Aubrie woke up about 3pm and then we sat out front and played with the neighbors.
It was seriously just a perfect day that ended with a wonderful rib dinner, potatoes and fruit and a trip to DQ for dessert.
When we asked Aubrie if she wanted Icecream, she screamed really loud, "YEAH!"
The night ended with a bonfire at the neighbors once Aubrie was asleep.
A great memorable day before our family of 3 becomes a family of 4.
Luke came home around 12pm, we ate lunch and then Aubrie was off for her nap. Luke and I set up ladder ball and played that, relaxed in the sunshine on the deck while we got our ribs on the grill and ready for dinner. Those things just aren't for kids you know!
Aubrie woke up about 3pm and then we sat out front and played with the neighbors.
It was seriously just a perfect day that ended with a wonderful rib dinner, potatoes and fruit and a trip to DQ for dessert.
When we asked Aubrie if she wanted Icecream, she screamed really loud, "YEAH!"
The night ended with a bonfire at the neighbors once Aubrie was asleep.
A great memorable day before our family of 3 becomes a family of 4.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
When there is nothing you can do....
A helpless feeling is awful and when there is nothing you can do to help the people you love, it is hard.
I am also reminded not to take for granted what I have.
On another note....I am so NOT prepared for this baby!!! I have pulled nothing out and have gone through nothing. I sit at work and joke about being gone for 3 months, but it just doesn't seem real. I need to get going as this baby will be here before I know it!
I am also reminded not to take for granted what I have.
On another note....I am so NOT prepared for this baby!!! I have pulled nothing out and have gone through nothing. I sit at work and joke about being gone for 3 months, but it just doesn't seem real. I need to get going as this baby will be here before I know it!
Friday, May 4, 2012
Choices we make...
3 years ago this spring I made some pretty bad choices in my life that affected every part of my life. Today I am thankful for an amazingly loving, forgiving and wonderful husband. By turning to God I truly feel that he has blessed us with an incredible little girl and another on the way. I am so excited to see the journey Luke and I have ahead of us. I love my husband so much...an amazing man!
Phil. 4:8, Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Phil. 4:8, Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Oh Life
People probably don't even realize that I have started to blog again...that is just fine. I do it more for myself....
I can't believe that I only have 3 months left until I can meet our little girl #2 aka Baby S or Baby L or Baby H.....Not sure on her name yet. And it is truly bugging me that I don't know it. I guess I will just have to meet her first! :)
I can't wait for our family of 3 to be a family of 4. And I can't wait to not be pregnant again...probably ever...but they say never say never so I am saying probably never again.
Aubrie is so much fun right now. I look forward to every moment I get to spend with her.
Luke had to work late tonight so it was just Aubrie and I for dinner. We sat down at the table and starting eating. I realized we hadn't prayed yet, so we stopped and she held my hand to pray. At the end of the prayer I said "amen" and she said in her little sweet voice "amen", without hearing the 'm' sound. It was so cute.
Aubrie really is talking up a storm. She can say: momma, daddy, Papa, Mimi (for grammy), sadie, hogan (which sounds more like hoagie), blue, juice, baby, Auntie, Please, Thank you....the list goes on, I just don't feel like writing them all.
I never knew that this little person could be such a joy and help teach Luke and I more and more about God's love. I can't wait to meet her sister!
(ps-horrible picture of me...taken straight on so I look like I have about 50 chins!)
I can't believe that I only have 3 months left until I can meet our little girl #2 aka Baby S or Baby L or Baby H.....Not sure on her name yet. And it is truly bugging me that I don't know it. I guess I will just have to meet her first! :)
I can't wait for our family of 3 to be a family of 4. And I can't wait to not be pregnant again...probably ever...but they say never say never so I am saying probably never again.
Aubrie is so much fun right now. I look forward to every moment I get to spend with her.
Luke had to work late tonight so it was just Aubrie and I for dinner. We sat down at the table and starting eating. I realized we hadn't prayed yet, so we stopped and she held my hand to pray. At the end of the prayer I said "amen" and she said in her little sweet voice "amen", without hearing the 'm' sound. It was so cute.
Aubrie really is talking up a storm. She can say: momma, daddy, Papa, Mimi (for grammy), sadie, hogan (which sounds more like hoagie), blue, juice, baby, Auntie, Please, Thank you....the list goes on, I just don't feel like writing them all.
I never knew that this little person could be such a joy and help teach Luke and I more and more about God's love. I can't wait to meet her sister!
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