I am bored.......Luke has had hockey every night this week. My routine is to come home, walk the dogs, eat dinner, work out, and then watch a little TV with Luke and then off to bed. Boring! Nothing too exciting about that. I am not feeling the whole "go work out" thing tonight, so we'll see if that happens, but I know I should cuz I am lazy on the weekends.........We'll see......

And It's RED!

I was able to get my hair done for FREE yesterday, yes, that is right, FREE! Lisa who I get my hair done by asked if I wanted to be a "hair model" while someone from Aveda came to show them new techniques. It was really fun to watch how they did my hair and to get my hair done for FREE!!!!!!!!! THANKS LISA!
Ok, so it's not the best picture........a) I was driving, b) you can't really see how red my hair is, and c) my phone takes REALLY CRAPPY pictures

It has been a busy week at work with everyone wanting to get closed before Thanksgiving. I am looking forward to the weekend. Luke and I have a date on Saturday night after his hockey practice....downtown Minneapolis to a restaurant, reservations at 8pm....I can't wait. Now I just have to figure out what to wear! :)

That is all for know......keep us in your prayers as we head to the UofM on Friday morning for a 2nd opinion w/ the doctors at the Maternal Fetal Clinic.

Get Shred

So tonight I started Jillian's 30 Day Shred along with a couple co-workers of mine. I bought the dvd a while ago, did it here and there, but am actually going to try and stick to the 30 days now with the support of co-workers. The video is only 20 minutes long. However, after doing level 1, my legs feel like jelly!

The nice thing is that right now my lung capacity is high since I have been going on the Elliptical 3-4 times per week for 30 minutes.

We'll just see if I can stick to the 30 day shred......let's hope! :)

Hi Friends, It has been a while since I have really blogged. Things are going well on the home front. We found out that the baby we had was a boy. His chromosomes and pathology were all normal, so that is very good news, means we can have kids.

We are just waiting now for our appt. to be scheduled at the U of M's Maternal Fetal clinic for a 2nd opinion on what we do now.

Once I know more I will update you.

Things that have helped keep me going is the amazing amount of support we have from our family and friends........thank you everyone!

A Day of Rest

I am taking tomorrow off of work and I can't wait!
A day all to myself to do whatever I want to do.....Hooray!

Happy Halloween

BEFORE....

AND AFTER!

We had a Costume Party last night......it was a blast....Unfortunately I didn't take that many pictures, but here are a few!

After a long weekend it was right back to work I went! I definitely will have put in well over 40 hours by the end of the week.

I am doing ok. Waiting to get test results back from the doctor to see if it was a boy or a girl and if the baby had normal chromosomes.

Luke has been really busy lately. He is coaching the Wayzata Squirt A Team for hockey this year and they have been having practices on Mondays and Wednesdays for the month of October to get the kids ready for the season. So, Luke hasn't been home those days until almost 10pm. I guess I will soon learn what it is like to be a "hockey mom" without a kid in hockey.

Other than work for me and hockey for Luke, things are going fine, just plugging away at work and trying to be as "normal" as I can be.

I never posted any pics. from our weekend in Duluth, so here are a few.

She Said "Yes to the Dress"

We had a great weekend in Chicago. On Saturday afternoon Sari said "Yes to the Dress!" For any of you who watch that show on TLC, "Say Yes to the Dress" you will understand. It was a great weekend, good food, good company and Great Shopping!
After Sari decided on her dress we enjoy some Prosecco at the Walnut Room at Macy's.

The highlights of our trip were:
**Sari finding her dress!

**Seeing Clinton Kelly from what not to wear....Yes, my mom went chasing after him :)

**Meeting our cousin Charlie for lunch

**Good girl time w/ my mom and sista!

It was a great weekend and fun to be in a different city.

It's back to work I go

I had a very difficult day on Sunday. I went to church with my mom and thankfully had Ana to sit next to me for support. I had a few melt downs during the service but survived. I was proud of myself for making that step, it was a hard one.
I am learning that I have never really dealt with any of the loss's I have had and now have to. I can't find other things in life, work, relationships, etc. to replace or push aside dealing with the grief that I need to work through.

I started back at work yesterday and was thrown right into it. I forgot that I left at the end of the month and had a lot of cleanup to do on all my files being back. I really am enjoying my job but desperately miss everyone at Executive that I used to work with. I miss that family atmosphere.

I know it isn't much but I gained a little wait being pregnant and to make myself feel better I started working out again this past Saturday. I ran Saturday and Sunday my 2 mile loop and then the past 2 nights went on the Elliptical for 30 minutes. My goal is to run in a 5K on Thanksgiving morning! I forget how it is so hard at first to get started working out, but once those endorphins get pumping it feels great. I am hoping that working out will also help my energy level and keep me sain. I feel like I can get out aggression or something when I exercise.

Thursday my mom, Sari and I leave for Chicago. We are staying right on Navy Peer and will be wedding dress shopping for Sari and just plain old shopping. It should be a good girls weekend and good bonding with my mom and sister.

That's all for now........GO TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Life goes on

My mom looked over and chuckled at me as I sat in the waiting room of the hospital holding the book I have been reading in my hand. "Why did you bring a book?" She aska, I replied, "Because remember last time how long I had to wait in the waiting room." We both kind of chuckled then at the ridiculousness of me bringing a book. Maybe it was for comfort or to try to make myself feel better for what was ahead, I don't know. Of course then about 2 minutes later a nurse called my name and I was back changing into a beautiful purple gown that hooks up to these tubes and inflates your gown to keep you warm.
After getting all the normal information from me, I met with my doctor and then the anesthesiologist. I made sure this time to let everyone know that they cannot give me an IV in my left hand, it doesn't work and they HAD to use my right hand. (Last time they poked me 4 times in my left hand before going to the right and I am never able to give blood from my left arm either...weird) Also, I made sure to let the doctor know that I get really sick after anesthesia, they said they would give me different medicines to help with that.

Luke wasn't able to be with me yesterday because it was the last day of the month and last day of the quarter for him, which was just fine with me since I would just be out of it after surgery anyways.

Getting my IV went fine, I wiggled my toes as normal and closed my eyes as I felt the "prick, then burn" as they try and gently explain it. So purple gown on, robe around my shoulders and IV in my right hand, I walked with the nurse anesthetist to the OR. I got in the room not much bigger than our downstairs bedroom here with bright lights all around me and a table of all the different tools my doctor would need. The nurse had me lay down on the OR table and they stretched my arms out on each side of me. Next thing I new I was looking up at this big lights and the tears just started coming. Again, for the 3rd time, I would go home from the same hospital without a baby in my arms. As that last thought went through my mind, the next thing I new I was back in my room slowly waking up. I can remember my doctor coming in and saying that everything went just fine. Thankfully this time the anesthesiologist took many precautions to help me with nausea so I wasn't getting sick after I woke up.

So yesterday my mom got me home around 3pm. I was in bed the rest of the day waking up here and there as my mom left and Luke came home. I nibbled on a couple crackers and drank Fanta (a must have in the Peterson house) and thought how I hated this part. I hate the part where now I have to move forward. No matter what life goes on just as it did before and I am left for the 3rd time now without a baby and this time without knowing if that is a possibility for Luke and I for the future. Thankfully I have the rest of the week and weekend to take the time I need emotionally and then starting Monday, life is back to normal....or Life Goes On. That is just the reality.